That was until I discovered it was snowing there. I try to avoid the airports these days because of the incredible hassle as well as the cost in travel. But upon climbing into my truck, I discovered my windsheild wipers were not funtional! (we don’t use em much in Cali).
So I rented a little Cobalt to drive out. It’s a kid car really. you gotta hand lock all the doors! it was still bigger than row 36 on Delta! And I got to leave when I was ready! The Scenery through the desert is always fantastic. There’s a silence out there that is almost “deafening”.
It’s hard not to hear God’s voice in the wilderness when there are no distractable noises. I needed a little quiet time too. Life this year has been screaming at all of us I think. Somehow I thought when you got older trials would ‘level off’.
You see old people sittin on the porch in a rocker and they look so peaceful. Turns out they are just plain numb from living!
Prescott was the perfect gig to go to. Christmas at Celebrate Recovery! Nobody’s all that happy to be there! And Christmas seems a little ironic. At one point I was singing “and I think to myself… what a wonderful world”… and realized that it really is a point of reference in our thought life that makes the difference in Merry Christmas and “Misery” Christmas.
“No body falls into the Christmas spirit” I told the 12 stepper’s. But I was really talkin to myself on this gig. I’ve had to choose to see “whatsoever is good” … and “think on these things”. Only then can God fill in the holes we all know are there!
I passed alot of “Arizona Christmas Trees” on the way to my next gig near the boarder of Mexico in California. And I was aware of one thing…I was mostly at peace about my life, when it came down to just me and God. I wasn’t worryin about what I needed to get done or where the next check might come from.
For me this weekend? I think my prayer closet was a “Cobalt”, by Chevy.
You are an outstanding writer. For a minute there I was right there with you. I’ve felt like that at times and it’s always good when we know someone else get’s it too. Even if it’s just for that minute. Thanks.
Bryan, Sorry I missed hearing you sing at the Heights Church in AZ! I heard about it at the last moment and wasn’t able to attend. Do you email out your schedule of appearances? I live in Prescott, AZ for the time, my daughter is here going to college and let me say, I MISS TEMECULA! ha Black Sheep HDFC M/M rocks! Blessings, HR
Bryan, It sounds like you are really at peace within yourself and with God now! I just NOW found your site for myself after my divorce 4 years later here in Texas. I ran away (like Jonah) from God, the High Desert in Calif. (which I now miss!) because I was always getting hurt by people who ‘claimed to know Christ’ mostly in the CCM. So now that the dust has settled, I feel as if I have awakened from a bad nightmare of a marriage, and find myself asking: “what am I doing in Texas?!” even thoug it is beautiful here, I know I moved outside of God’s will for me. Radio Rehab has helped me BIGTIME! Now I’m hoping I can get back to where I belong in Cali! Lord willin! Thank you Bryan for your transparency! Rich Lynd 903-292-1125